So, this is what happened that day several decades ago when the curtain was torn for me between the physical world and the supernatural world, and I finally began to see.
Because I finally began to believe.
I was seventeen years old at the time, travelling in Europe with my friend.
That day began like many others during that season as we rolled up our sleeping bags and left the hostel with a wave to the other youth travelers and set off on another day of adventure. This time, we were in Paris, a place I had longed to be for a long time. Years earlier, I studied the “Tour d’Eiffel and the L’Arc de Triomphe” from our sanitized classroom in Canada, the frigid winds blowing on the monotonous, nearly black-and-white landscape.
Not today!
We hiked up our fat, well-worn backpacks higher onto our backs. We pushed up our glasses and squinted, staring at everyone and everything as we passed, innocently looking away when we accidentally caught their eyes. This was our ridiculous effort to blend in with French culture as much as possible.
On a scale of 1-10, with 10 being “jubilant,” our combined average mood on this trip was a 10.5.
We were thrilled just to be there, and every crack in the sidewalk offered an opportunity to explore a new aspect of French culture.
Except for today.
Today, for some reason that I couldn’t pinpoint, my mood was objectively declining. From the people we passed, who seemed to glare at us menacingly (This definitely wasn’t the case, my friend worriedly assured me), to the landscape, which was donning hues more reminiscent of black-and-white, rather than the opulent, exciting colors that a new surrounding conjures, I was losing my exuberant mentality.
In fact, I was becoming downright weighed down by SOMETHING, some ominous feeling that grew heavier with each step towards the train station downtown.
Something was wrong.
What was going on?
My friend and I had carefully assured each other that if either of us ever felt the slightest bit uncomfortable while travelling, we would change course until we both felt at peace. No questions asked. In four months of travelling, feeling uncomfortable had never happened to either of us.
Except for today.
When our train pulled into the station, the feeling of ominous darkness grew within me until I finally blurted out, “I DON’T KNOW WHY BUT I CAN’T GET ON THAT TRAIN!”
“Okay, okay!” my friend assured me calmly, in a tone one would expect a Psychiatrist to use when talking someone down from a ten-story window ledge who plans to jump.
We sat in silence on the bench, watching our train depart. We didn’t speak, each looking in a different direction, my friend occasionally suspiciously glancing at me from the corner of her eye. Had I gone berserk?
After five, ten, and then fifteen minutes of sitting in silence, I felt the heavy feeling lift more and more.
After twenty minutes, I was about a seven out of ten on our “Jubilant Mood Meter” and climbing.
What had just happened?
“Look, I’m sorry,” I offered. “I have no idea what that was about.” My friend looked relieved that I had re-found my sanity and breathed an audible sound of relief. “Let’s just catch the next train.”
Which we did.
About one hour into that train ride, our train suddenly stopped mid-track. There were no stations for a long time. My friend and I looked at each other quizzically.
An announcement came over the train’s speakers, stating that the train ahead of us had been involved in an accident and that we would have to wait for a while.
Our eyes grew big.
But my heart also expanded that day, until it was big enough to fit God inside.
That experience was like a North Star within me, too precious to speak aloud. I shared this story with only a handful of people for the first few decades. Why?
Who would have believed me anyway?
(Except you, of course.)
Be prepared to hear many more stories like this, friend, as we open our eyes.
Faith is to believe what you do not yet see; the reward for this faith is to see what you believe.
Saint Augustine in Confessions
As the song below plays, consider asking God how you may have accidentally let Jesus pass you by.
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