
I’m feeling sad because today is the last day of our holidays.
I’m surprised because I’m going home to an awesome life! I mean, I take great pains to portray an image of having a fantastic life for you! (Why else would you read this stuff?)
I tenderly opened the depths of my heart to my empathetic husband, and he said something along the lines of, “Well, of course, you’re not happy to be going home! You’re a nutcase there!”
Actually, on reflection, he phrased it closer to, “You’re more stressed out trying to get a million things done at home.”
After I yelled at him and sulked for a while, I had coffee with Jesus, and that’s when I realized my husband was right.
(Don’t you hate it when that happens? I still haven’t admitted it to him, though. He is living under my condemnation, which increases the power balance in my favor for a while. I’ll be less mad at him the next time I do something stupid, and the power shifts in his favor. There’s some more free marriage advice! You’re welcome! Good luck!)
But we’re not done talking about this end-of-the-vacation-sadness thing.
The insight I had today is that the reason why we travel is . . .
. . . to get away from OURSELVES.
I mean, away from that feeling of wanting to be Jesus, get everything done, help everyone around you, and learn how to live a better life and stuff like that.
Wait. We’re not supposed to want to BE Jesus. It’s hard to keep all of that theology straight!
I left my To-Do list at home for just a week while we were on holiday. I left my neurotic rambling to try to figure out how to live a purposeful life closed up in my journal. Instead of powering through these lists and creating more lists, I simply enjoyed drinking fresh coconut water by the beach and laughing with the people I love.
And so it’s not that we need to get away from a particular PLACE to relax.
I’ve realized with startling insight and uncharacteristic blindness to my motivations that what I need to get away from is actually just ME.
Do you have any Type B friends? Type B people seem to be more relaxed and don’t seem to wind themselves up so tightly about whether their life has meaning and unimportant stuff like that. I don’t happen to hang around any Type B people.
We don’t get along.
But perhaps the point of this trip is that shifting ever so slightly into that place where we put the responsibility for the meaningfulness of our lives onto the broad shoulders of Jesus is one of the ways that the weights can fall off of our lives so we can rise and soar like we’re meant to.
He energizes those who get tired, gives fresh strength to dropouts. For even young people tire and drop out, young folk in their prime stumble and fall.
But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles
So no, I am not saying that Type B people have something we can learn from because I’m definitely not humble enough to admit that yet!
However, admitting that I’m not God is a good start!
And we all start somewhere!
I hope this helps you!
You’re welcome!
Good luck!
As the lyrics of the song below sing, “It’s all I can do to get up in the morning . . . But where else can I go . . . but to you?” do you see Jesus holding out his arms to you like a father, bidding his small child to rest in his arms? As you quietly rest in his arms and take some deep breaths there, what do you sense him saying to you as the rest of the song plays?
God, we carry burdens and responsibilities that are too big for us. We finally, reluctantly, hand them over to you, and we receive the peace of knowing that holding your hand as we live our lives allows you to carry the responsibility for a life well-lived. Wake us up to how we try to carry what only you have strong enough shoulders to bear.
Photo credits – Dog in car window by Avi Richards on Unsplash, Eagle soaring by Rachel McDermott on Unsplash
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